Day 2: Mission possible!

No that's not a typo. I really meant POSSIBLE instead of "impossible". It's only day 2 and while this still sucks and is going to take a whole to get used to-I feel really positive about being able to stick with it. I know it's still early on-but wait until you hear why. 

You know that person in the office that you love to hate because they always bring in treats? You know you shouldn't indulge- but damnit- they need to quit tempting me! My coworker brought in Panera today, and what goes more perfectly with an awesome cup of coffee other than a Cinnamon Crunch bagel and cream cheese? Well duh-NOTHING. But I did compromise and only had half! And man was it worth it. 

So, that deliciousness held me over to lunch (with the help of all that water) where I actually ate a ::gasp:: salad. I know. Shocked the hell outta me too. 

Which brings me to my first question/problem of the day. Yesterday when I ate my pear it brought to my attention that about half the time I eat fruit (no matter which type) I feel very nauseous. I'm not sure if it's the acid, sugar, or my body in just complete shock from eating something healthy-but it's not a fun feeling. Any thoughts? 

Anyhoo-back to my salad. Guess what? Yep I took a pic of that too. I need all the proof I can use to prove to myself in the future I can survive off of rabbit food once in a while!

I managed to go to the gym today at lunch and hit the elliptical for a full 30 minutes getting in about 2.15 miles! Whoop whoop!

I started getting a headache this afternoon which I assume is from my lak of Pepsi/caffeine so I threw in an extra cup of coffee-but I'm still soda free! It's not any easier yet, but I know it WILL BE.   Dinner was a pretty unhealthy chicken and rice-but half of my normal serving and I cut myself off. 

Now I know this is lengthy but it's really helping me remind myself that this is truly a step, meal, and day at a time. Even on just day 2 I can't believe the support I've received from so many of my friends that are from all different parts of my life. I've received multiple texts asking how it's going, for my next blog post, and updating me on THEIR progress cause they've decided to take this huge step with me. To all of you giving me your support daily- know it means the world to me that you care enough to listen to me ramble on daily and I truly appreciate all you do for me daily to keep me going.  I hope we continue to inspire each other and push through this together. 

Day 1: Me Against the World

Today was such a bust. Ok. That's not completely true. But I already feel like a failure and it's just day one. 

Just like every other time I try to lose weight I started off today with high hopes and great intentions. I wrote my awesome first blog, got great support from lots of friends and family, and was ready to take on the day. 

I did pretty well in the morning. Got my usual cup of coffee and was in heaven for about half a cup instead of the whole thing like usual. I also cut my normal breakfast in half. Instead of a huge 2 egg omelette filled with sausage, potatoes, mushrooms and smothered in cheese I settled for a 1 egg omelette with mushrooms and cheese. AND here's the kicker- instead of washing it down with a delicious, cold, refreshing Pepsi- I had water. Lots and lots and lots of water. 

Whoever told you that drinking water was good for you and helps you lose weight was definitely not lying. What they failed to mention is that it helps you cause you then spend half the damn day walking back and forth to the bathroom to pee which HAS to equal at least half of your daily excercise when added all up. Forreal. It. Is. The. Worst. 

Sigh. 

Anyways, for lunch I started with a pear, some granola, and yep-more water. I then took my happy (rolls eyes) ass to the gym. 

Look- I even took a picture to capture the moment!!

DAY 1!!

So. Here comes the downhill slope. 

Not even 20 minutes on the elliptical, in gettin' it. Music blasting, reading a book, and sweating out all that DAMN WATER. My phone rings.

 Oooh what happens next you ask? 

The tire on Mike's truck has blown out and he's stranded and needs me (cue super hero music) to come rescue him. Soooooo- workout day 1 is cut short. But then again, maybe it's ok after all that bathroom walking, but who's counting?

Anyhoo- had to leave and get all that fixed and my baby sister calls and asks me to come over and make dinner. What does she buy to eat? Cheeseburgers and tator tots. YUMMMMM. How can you say no to that?! 

So. What did I learn today? Life is always in my way and making it way too easy for me to make excuses. I did not, however, have a soda. I am NOW dying and craving a Pepsi like there's no tomorrow. I literally just want to walk into my  kitchen and drink about 4 of them. 

I guess today was a wash. Onward and upward from here. Day 2-I'm comin after you. 

Been there, Done that.

Today’s the beginning.

Yeah, I’ve said it at least 200 times before.  Been there, done that. "Today is the day I start working out again, today is the day I start eating healthier, today is the day I start dieting, today is THE day I’m going to get healthier!"  Well…clearly none of those days were THE day because here I am, 28 years old, and no closer to where I want to be with my weight, how fit I want to be, or how healthy I need to be. 

So, in hopes that this will hold my butt (and all the rest of me) accountable-I’m going to share my thoughts, progress, setbacks, goals, and anything else that pops into my head with you all.  Hopefully it will keep me going, motivate you, and together we can get to where we want to be.

Now, with that said-I guess I should start with the obvious.  HOW did I get to where I am today?!  Well my typical answer is “I’ve gotten married, had 2 kids, work fulltime, and run a household which leaves me no time to exercise.”  The truth? I’m lazy and I love food.  By the time I get home and can actually SIT down all I want to do is sit, read a book, cuddle up with something yummy to eat, and relax-who the hell chooses exercise over that?!  I guess all the fit and skinny people. 

The problem with my excuse is I know that it’s BS, I know I can lose weight (because I’ve done it before), and I honestly felt way better when I was trying to be healthy.  The problem is sticking with it after the first few months, seeing it as a new lifestyle instead of a means to an end. 

To reach and maintain my goal I have to do this for the rest of my life. 

^The rest of my life.  That’s a long (hopefully) damn time. 

So the rest of my life is going to start now.  I am 1 year and 5 months away from turning 30 (how the hell I’ve gotten this old this fast is beyond me) and to getting where I want to be.  So where do I want to be?  The first thing that pops into my head is “hot and skinny”.  But let’s not get ahead of ourselves.  I want to be comfortable enough in my own skin.  I want to not feel lethargic all the time.  I want to feel GOOD about myself.  To me that is going to be better than a number on the scale-but let’s be real-the number helps.

I need to take responsibility for myself, get healthy, so that I can be around for my kids, my family, and MYSELF.  I have small goals to get to where I want to be; which is ultimately about 50lbs less than I am now.  I have monthly goals, timeframes, and hopefully with lots of hard work I can achieve them.

SO- here is a list of my goals.  I hope that by having short term and long term it’ll keep me on track.

I’m starting today at 178.4lbs. 

Short term goal:  170.00lbs by November  18^th.  That’s 4 weeks, 8lbs.

(I like to work in groups of 10 so I don’t feel like I’m being unrealistic but it also feels like an achievement when I hit my next set of “10’s”.)

Long term goal:  My first big “landmark” is going to be my birthday.  I’d realistically like to be at 150lbs (28.4lbs lost) by March 13, 2014-my 29^th birthday.

What I’m doing today to start:  I’ve brought my workout clothes back to work.  I’m taking my big butt back to the gym at lunch time like I did before.  It honestly is a stress reliever in the middle of the day and makes me feel better.  I am loading up on lots of water and cutting back my soda.  I am going to try and make healthier eating choices by not necessarily cutting food out of my life, but by cutting back portions. 

I really hope that by posting what I’m going through during this will help me maintain focus.  I know there will be setbacks, I know there will be hard days (probably more than easy days at first) but I hope with time and patience I can somehow find a balance!